This piece isn’t about the collective “we” of shared experience. It’s just about me, my practice right now- written this way because I’m pretty sure anything I’m experiencing in this unprecedented time is being experienced by many of you as well.
More than two decades into a regular yoga practice, surely I hit my mat every day and use my practice to stay fit and healthy, right? Ummm…
Sun salutations are good for expelling anxious energy. But many days I’m too lethargic to do those. Clinical Somatics and restorative poses are good for smoothing out the physical and emotional kinks. But many days I haven’t the focus for the minute, internal referencing. Standing poses are good for restoring balance and creating grounding. But many days I feel too unstable, or just. can’t. even.
So what is a faithful yogi to do? Just get on the mat. I lie on my back, knees bent, and aim first to bring a bit more stillness into the fidgety places- hands, eyes, feet. And sometimes that is the whole practice. Other times it leads to a gentle swaying of the knees, or stretching the legs out slowly, or resting hands on my lower belly and breathing into that space.
Once or twice in the last month, just getting on the mat has led to an “actual” pose or two. My practice has boiled down to just me getting friendly with my mat; saying hello to it every day for even a minute or two; acknowledging that the practice of yesterday is irrelevant to the practice today; and offering gratitude to my beloved mat for always being there to receive me.
Slow yoga, fast yoga, tears-in-your-ears yoga, looks-like-doing-nothing yoga. Whatever I choose is OK.
Living at the speed of yoga,
Melissa Peet, practice manager